Hello, all!
So, it has been a long time since I blogged. The plain and simple reason is because I haven't had anything 'blog-worthy' to share. It's not that I haven't had stuff going on (boy, have I!), it just hasn't been anything I thought was worth taking the time to write out or have other read.
This all changed yesterday when I was driving back to Tennessee from a visit with my parents. I started thinking about an incident that happened just before we pulled out of the driveway. My dad was checking out my car, as he normally does before I head out on the long 4-hour trek home. I had complained earlier that my windshield wiper fluid had run dry and even though the Hubs had refilled it, it still wasn't working. He got the fluid from the trunk and began to look for the reservoir cap, I had no clue where it was, being car illiterate, but I noticed a small reservoir with a bright yellow cap and the wiper symbol on it. My dad started to take the cap off when Chas came over. He adamantly told Poppy that that was wrong. Chas pointed to the next reservoir, which also had a yellow cap. Poppy replied telling him that that was for the radiator. Chas was having none of it. He saw his dad a week earlier fill up up the windshield wiper fluid and it was in THAT place. I have to admit that my dad handled it wonderfully. He showed Chas the tubes that led from THAT reservoir to the radiator. The kicker of course was when Dad finished and the windshield wiper fluid sprayed up cleaning a very dirty windshield.
Now, why is this story important? Well, I called the Hubs while I was driving down the road to tease him a bit about being so rushed that he put the wiper fluid in the wrong place, but I also told him that he should be happy because his son had unbelievable faith in him. Even with me and his Poppy telling him otherwise, he still believed that his dad had done the right thing. Our conversation was cut short, but that part of the conversation lingered with me as I continued my journey. I began to think about my Heavenly Father. Do I have that trust and faith in Him? It's kind of easy to when things go well, but what about when they don't?
I just started a new study at church on the topic of our emotions. The book has been great! Just like most of the women I've talked to I have a problem with my patience running thin and my anger and frustration getting the better of me. However, I think my bigger problem with my emotions is letting ALL my 'feelings' get in the way. I have a tendency to let things spiral out of control when things aren't going well. I become ruled by my feelings, whatever they are at that particular moment: sad, happy, scared, angry. Scared is a BIG one.
Then, yesterday I had that revelation. What if I could trust God the way Chas trusted his dad? What if I truly believed and acted as if I had complete and total faith in God? That is what He desires. He shows time and time again in His Word and in my life that He in in control.
So, I am working on that being MY desire as well. When I'm running late and start to get anxious or Chas is trying my patience or the storms of life are surging. God is in control. When I make a 3 wrong turns adding an extra 30 minutes to an already very long trip? God's still in control! Lord, please help me in this. El Elyon!
